I'm in hell but I'm cold...

I'm starting today even though I don't know what. Today is the second day after he has died for me. Today I'm looking inside my head whithout knowing what to look for... Just found there a big black ghost hiding the sun light. Today is cold even if it is 30 degrees outside! Today I'll go in the water and swim with bubbles and shadows ... and bubbles and shadows and water will drive me out of my mind.